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The Joy of Becoming

by Scott F. Parker
March 4th, 2015

On Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche’s Ecce Homo

 

1.

A few years ago, I was riding my bike and thinking about the declaration “I am not a man. I am dynamite,” when I hit a pothole and flipped over my handlebars, giving a new meaning to having one’s view of the world turned over by Nietzsche. The self-anointed Antichrist never wanted to be made a holy man (sooner even a buffoon, he said) and I won’t conscript him here except as, of all things, a contemporary memoirist. Ecce Homo,the mostly forgotten autobiography in which the dynamite explodes, is a downright archetypal if extremely odd memoir. The book’s subtitle, How One Becomes What One Is, nearly saysit all: this is a story not of a life but of a self in time—how the I of the
story became the I who tells the story—and like so much of Nietzsche’s writing,
Ecce Homo was, as he said, a hundred
years ahead of its time.

Nietzsche had no way of knowing, when
he wrote the text in three weeks in
the fall of 1888, that he was about to take ill or that Ecce Homo would be his final work. At the time he was mostly
ignored, and had been best known as a former philological wunderkind. His
status grew under his sister’s careful management during the insanity of his
final decade when he was unable to appreciate it, but she withheld publication
of his own self-reflections until 1908, eight years after his death.

Ecce
Homo
remains a kind of lost book from a found author; in the century since
its publication, while Nietzsche has risen in prominence and fluctuated in notoriety,
Ecce Homo has remained relatively
obscure. While books like The Birth of
Tragedy
and Thus Spoke Zarathustra
are frequently referred to (if less frequently read), Ecce Homo most likely sits on your shelf only as the unfamiliar
text included in the volume of The
Genealogy of Morals
you were assigned in college.

If you go to your bookshelf now and
crack that 1989 Vintage edition to page 202 you will encounter Walter Kaufmann
of 1966 making the case for Ecce Homo by
comparing Nietzsche’s—can I say swagger—to
that of his contemporary Van Gogh (“the lack of naturalism is not proof of
insanity but a triumph of style”). We have Kaufmann largely to thank for the
redemption of Nietzsche’s name after the Nazis’ attempted appropriation. But I
don’t think it’s enough to read him only as a thinker but also as, perhaps, a
liver. Because life for Nietzsche was both the root and the fruit of his
philosophy, and his philosophy appears as much in the life he recounts as it
does in what we normally think of as philosophical writing.

2.

“Behold the
man,” says Pontius Pilate as Jesus is presented for crucifixion. “Behold the
man,” says Nietzsche as he presents himself for—well, for what? What does Nietzsche
invite with chapter titles such as “Why I Am So Wise” and “Why I Am So Clever”?
Here is a supreme ironist at work, whose words always mean more than they say.
Beyond simple disclosure there is another sense to his “homo”: that we behold a
man as we’ve never seen one: Man as he might be, one who celebrates and finds
virtue in his humanness. The discussions of diet, nutrition, climate, walking,
etc., are many and become the stuff of philosophy, demonstrating the inverse of
the claim, as he writes, that “every great philosophy [is an] … unconscious
autobiography.”

Where Christ
extols heaven, Nietzsche affirms life on earth. The book’s final line reads,
“Have I been understood?—Dionysus versus
the Crucified.
—” But the phrase “Ecce Homo” occurs first in Nietzsche in
the marginalia to his copy of Emerson’s “Spiritual Laws,” where he writes the
words alongside a passage that includes, “The man may teach by doing, and not
otherwise.”

Nietzsche is frequently (and rightly)
commended as a stylist, but this can be dismissive praise of an author for whom
style reveals rather than disguises character. Behold a man whose teaching is
inseparable from his doing. Behold a memoirist whose writing is inseparable
from his living. Collapsing the space between self as writer and self as
written (in the text if not outside it), Nietzsche works a neat little
ouroboric logic: his own Dionysian flair is confirmed by the text that produces
it. Such megalomania can be read as solipsism, it can also be read as apogee;
memoir invents a world in which the I
is the only possible conclusion; the text deviates from Nietzsche only insofar
as it circumscribes its world.

The longest of Ecce Homo’s four chapters, “Why I Write Such Great Books,” is a
pitiless reading of the author’s oeuvre. Whether or not he is his own best
reader, Nietzsche’s unsentimentality toward past works performs his virtue of
self-overcoming as effectively as one of his readily quotable lines: “One pays
dearly for immortality: one has to die several times while still alive.”

Singing of Thus Spoke Zarathustra,
which Nietzsche considered his (not to mention the world’s) most important
book, and to which he gives the most attention in Ecce Homo, Nietzsche writes, “Let anyone add up the spirit and good
nature of all great souls: all of them together would not be capable of
producing even one of Zarathustra’s discourses.”

This self-regard would be obscene if
it did not belong to Nietzsche. And maybe it still is, but it’s meaningful here
to recall the context for Ecce Homo.
Nietzsche was writing with manic purpose in 1888 (four books that year alone),
yet despite his sense of destiny his legacy was hardly assured. Writing that
“To become what one is, one must not have the faintest notion what one is,” Nietzsche recognized that
the memoirist, like the philosopher, was “of
necessity
a man of tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.”

And yet to be constantly inventing a
new future for Nietzsche is not to turn one’s back on the past. His conception
of amor fati figures centrally in Ecce Homo, as it does in every memoir.
No writer has more resoundingly spurned self-pity than Nietzsche when he
writes, “My formula for greatness in a human being is amor fati: that one wants nothing to be different, not forward, not
backward, not in all eternity. Not merely bear what is necessary, still less
conceal it… but love it.” Which
would be a startling proclamation from someone who suffered greatly in life, except
that Nietzsche considered suffering necessary precondition for greatness. It
follows, then, that he would say, “Never have I felt happier with myself than
in the sickest and most painful periods of my life.” To actually love the past
is to affirm the necessity of life as it is. What better impulse to memoir
than: “How can I fail to be grateful to
my whole life?—and so I tell my life to myself.

For Nietzsche this gratitude presents
in contrast to resentment, which claims a false recourse to circumstances that
do not—and therefore cannot—obtain. If things were different they wouldn’t be
the same.
No one should understand contingency with respect to the self
better than the memoirist. In his introduction, Kaufmann offers this his final
assessment of the book: “‘The tragic man affirms even the harshest suffering.’
And Ecce Homo is, not least of all,
Nietzsche’s final affirmation of his own cruel life.”

Good memoirs do not blame or settle
scores. And surely Nietzsche’s does not. What generosity of spirit there is in
an unheralded writer with the courage to be thankful
for his failures: “Ten years—and nobody in Germany has felt bound in conscience
to defend my name against the absurd silence under which it lies buried… I
myself have never suffered from all this.” How many writers could mean that?
And if he indeed was suffering, as raising the issue suggests, he nevertheless
supports the possibility that for a writer the only book that matters is the
next one, and that for a person what matters is what one is currently becoming.

Reading the Nietzsche of Ecce Homo is an exhilarating—and
sometimes maddening—undertaking. Thinking back to my bike accident and the
dynamite that caused it, I find myself to be in sympathy with Malcolm Bull, who
writes in Anti-Nietzsche that “Even
though Nietzsche is attributing the explosive power to himself, not to us, we
instantly appropriate it for ourselves.”

It can feel impossible to read
Nietzsche without leaning on his style in one’s own writing, but as Nietzsche
says, “One repays a teacher badly if one always remains a pupil only.” The
drive to overcome that originates in Ecce
Homo
flows off the page and fills its reader. Nietzsche compels us to see
our own lives as destinies, as narratives, and take up our own memoirs, whether
literally as writers or figuratively as subjects set loose to compose our
lives. Each of us saying one way or another, “Hear me! For I am such and such a person. Above all, do not mistake me
for someone else.

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